The hardest shift for me from a parttime job into a full time business of my own has been the money part. When my inspiration already told me to let go of the job and go for what I fully wanted, my fear of not having enough money always held me back. I found so much safety and security in this job that I had such a hard time trusting that life could bring money to me in any other way.
🙈September 2015 a herniated disk in my lower back gave me that last push I needed to let go of the job. But still the amount of safety I felt with my new situation was very little. A very triggering and challenging process with me and money started. An invitation from Life to trust and surrender opened.
IN 3 YEARS TIME I SHIFTED FROM SAVING UP ENOUGH MONEY BEFORE TRAVELLING, TO CREATING A LIFE WHICH ALLOWS ME TO TRAVEL AND MAKE MONEY AT THE SAME TIME. 😎
This however has me meet up with my “money-edge” quit regularly. I remember preparing for my trip to Brazil and wanting to buy a new Macbook. I remember it would take half the money out of the money for my trip to Brazil and that had me doubt for a few weeks. I also remember clearly the question to myself:
“Are you going to live your YES fully and trust that life meets you there?”
“Are you going to live from lack beliefs and limitations and settle for less then you know is possible?”
I decided the first and went to the apple store in Amsterdam. The second I walked into the store I received a message from a beautiful woman who told me she wants to book me for a women’s weekend retreat. And she already had a group of women who would immediately book and join.
😃THE AMOUNT OF MONEY I MADE IN THAT SECOND WAS EXACTLY THE AMOUNT I WAS ABOUT TO SPEND ON MY NEW MAC.
Now writing this from my super light new Mac, from Tallinn where I am visiting my love. I want to share with you that it is really about following our full yes and trusting that life will meet us there. This I’ve had proven to myself over and over again.
An invitation from life to trust deeper and deeper in it’s support. I feel so much how it is about taking that step first and then be met with the means. It’s like walking on tiles on the floor that lit up only when you first step on them. Not the other way around. 🥰